11/1 Thoughts and Prayer

"Older," song by Five Seconds of Summer

I don't wanna get older
Without your head on my shoulder
On the day that you leave me
I'll forever be bleeding, love
As forever comes closer
Hope the world will spin slower
I don't wanna get older
I don't wanna get older

Stare at the photograph
Suddenly takes me back
The promises roll off your breath
In your cocaine-colored wedding dress

Lost in the day to day
You kiss away the pain
Oh, every time you twist my lips
My dear devoted delicate

It's not worth it if I lose my one-way ticket for two
Just me
Just you

I don't wanna get older
Without your head on my shoulder
On the day that you leave me
I'll forever be bleeding love
As forever comes closer
Hope the world will spin slower
I don't wanna get older
I don't wanna get older

Our love is tailor-made
But we let the edges fray
Your wicked smile, it says it all
Mixed with my sad and cynical
No tragedy at the end
No nothing Shakespearean
It all comes flooding back again
My dear devoted delicate

It's not worth it if I lose my one-way ticket for two
Just me
Just you

I don't wanna get older
Without your head on my shoulder
On the day that you leave me
I'll forever be bleeding love
As forever comes closer
Hope the world will spin slower
I don't wanna get older
I don't wanna get older

Every day I come closer to my inevitable end - meaning I become closer and closer to losing my loved ones. I find this desire to freeze time so beautiful, which is why this is one of my favorite songs.

But no, my end will not be Shakespearean. Maybe it may look tragic on the outside, but my end will be an end to finding eternity. Lord, I pray that You give me the opportunity to prepare my death! You know I'm a huge planner. Please help me to prepare for my death in advance.